Sunday, February 26, 2012


tempting to ride an endless road
taking me to nowhere
in the midst of dust

tempting to run away
isolate in lost island
rotten to death

tempting to push the pedal to the max
to bring me to the next life
to left what's behind

tempting to swim in the red pool
suffocate in my own pool of blood
end my suffer

tempting to electrified myself
erase all my memories
and live in solemn

tempting to end everything
for the next life

but i dont want to be selfish to do all.
as I will kill more hearts than my ownself.

I'm trapped and remained suffocate for the rest of my life.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012


I'm confused
My feelings is not helping me
I don't know what's the right thing to do.

If this thing keep going on,
I could be sick again.

But I don't plan to be sick again.
I don't plan to go all over this ever again.

My time bomb is ticking...
I need to get away...

Someone need to save me...
I'm scared.

Monday, February 20, 2012

My 30’s


I’m turning 30 today! 3 consecutive days of early celebration with friends, family and 3 cute cakes Smile.

I am blessed with great friends and family and a happy life Smile

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Basically, none that I plan to achieved in my 20’s achieved. Smile with tongue out

So will see how my luck in my 30’s will be.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012


How should I say this...

It's weird and shocked,
It's surprising and unpredictable,

It crushed me hard for a weird reasons,
It should not happened,
I've been avoiding this kind of feeling for so, so long,
and suddenly it happened yesterday.

I don't know why I feel happy but sad,
I don't know why I felt what I felt,
But its unavoidable, it just can't,
I'm not that strong,
I'm so sorry.

Believe me, my heart felt something,
It makes me restless,
But I'm not that strong,
I'm so sorry,
I just can't.

I didn't know why I cried,
But I did.

and I'm so sad...

I need sometimes alone...
please forgive me.